It's funny how much you begin to care about fictional characters, about people pretending to be what they aren't, because that's all actors are really - very good liars. You cry when Jack dies in Titanic, tears drip down your cheeks when Simba's father dies and when Tom Hank dies in Philadelphia your world darkens for just a few minutes. It's silly really, they aren't real, their heartbreak and hardships don't really happen and after it all you can just switch over and pretend it never happened.

But still. They do matter, don't ask my why but they do.

I think that's a really good thing. That we, humans that is, are capable of caring so much about something that isn't even real. That just the idea of somebody going through so much pain is capable of bringing us to tears. I hope we never lose that side to us, humankind. Makes up for all the shit we put this world through.

my legs are burning

and I stink of chlorine, and I feel like I could fall to sleep right this second - but i'm very happy. I've had a day that i've dreaded for weeks, and it went to much better than I thought, and I ended it by doing something that I enjoy with somebody i'm close to. I don't think things get much better then that, do you? So even though I am close to chopping off my limbs and becoming a sexy flid, I am in a very good mood.



I hope I can keep this up into the weekend.



Oh, what do you think of my new costume idea for taras?

Ah, my little darling, it is love at first sight, is it not, no?

i'm a little bit lost without you

...and i'm a bloody big mess inside.

don't you think it's strange, how you never forget? never, never, never.

it just hurts a little less.

You pikachu'd me off.

I hate it when you don't have the right to be angry as such, but you are all the same. But you can't even vent that anger because you aren't meant to be angry! It's all just a vicious circle ending in me violently tapping at my gameboy and mocking my pokemon. Don't worry pokemon, it isn't your fault. Social dynamics is simply turning me into a bitter, gameboy-bashing hermit. Bloody society.

I didn't write you a love song...

...because let's be honest, you're a jackass ;)

this isn't even aimed at anybody, I just fancied writing a 'fuck you' post. So sue me.

weheartgenius

” In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.”

I hate it when you wake up from a really good dream, and for the first two seconds your life is different - better - and then you remember. It's just a little bit heartbreaking.

giving up the gun?

somebody buy me the new Vampire Weekend album. pleasepleasepleaseplease.

Something I really enjoy about this band, I can't even pinpoint it. Each song sounds very different to me, but with that same playful VW aspect that makes it good. It's fun to listen to I guess, clangy and joyful.